So a small update, I have just completed my first "project" at work. Some may know that I have been wandering around work to install some new software, however this is to go live on monday. I have installed the client on over 650 computers, around the hospital and it will be very annoying if the 3rd party supplier now screws up. Which is more than likely now that we are prepared.
Our daughters now legally have to attend a school, and I have the addresses of both schools. Which means I can get updates on their lives, as well as their mother cannot remove them from school without my consent or that of the court. So We are counting that as a win for my daughters. There is more to that but that will be something that will take a year to come to fruition.
I recently I admitted to someone that we had feelings for them. I feel that somethings must be clarified, I was not doing it due to others around me also pairing up, or to copy them. I do not want something that someone else has, what I want is something unique to me and the person I will be with,not a shadow of a feeling. This is not a small infatuation that has appeared recently but something that has grown for the past 30 months, and has taken a lot to admit to them. I knew I would be rebuffed but needed to clear the air so that I can concentrate on other things, hopefully in the future I can provide friendship for them but at the moment, it may be too much to do that. We understand why I was rebuffed,even with a polite "I do not feel the same", and both respect and accept it, however I cannot turn off the feelings within me, wish I could.
As you, my reader, may be aware I am not in chat at the moment. Nor looking to return, I would like to point out that this is not due to the person I told of my feelings, but of personal burn-out as we said in the previous post. This is all here, so that I can write it down, get my feelings and thoughts out of my head. Without ruining too much in the process.
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I'm glad things are starting to look up for you, hun. I'm sorry that whoever it was you told turned you down... Personally, I think that person is a bit of a fool. I mean, you're a great friend, as you've demonstrated to me in the past, you're a very good listener, you're sweet when you want to be.
ReplyDeleteBut, it's out in the open, at least between you and them, and despite the rejection I hope it makes you feel at least a little better. After all, the worst they could have said was no. (Well, there could have been worse said, but meh, you know what I mean.)